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Can God Still Bless You When You’re Looking at Porn?

September 18, 2009

god2Q: Can I still look at porn and be blessed by God?

Several years ago I was a new church planter in Buffalo, NY. I was the lead pastor in a young growing church. We were adding people to our church, baptizing people, and developing leaders. Our church was in many ways “flavor of the month”. But inside, I had a growing struggle with Internet pornography, fantasy, and masturbation.

I seemed blessed. Our church seemed blessed. Things were going well. It seemed like my struggles didn’t affect my job. I felt as long as I was “confessed up” by Sunday, then I could still be affective with my preaching, teaching, and leading.

  • Can this be true?
  • Can we really maintain a life of porn on the inside and be blessed by God?
  • Does God just seem to ignore some situations?

 

garden_of_edenGOD’S GENERAL BLESSINGS
Many of God’s blessings have nothing to do with our obedience or disobedience. He blesses because of who He is… because of His nature. He displays His glory and goodness, and we get to live in it. He has put His creativity into place, and we inherit the blessing of it. The righteous and the unrighteous both benefit from God’s general blessing.

So in a sense, I am blessed by God… period.

But God was not ignoring my secret struggles.

 

KEY TRUTHS I WAS MISSING

video_games_on_pageGod working was often working in spite of me – God cares for lost and hurting people and reaches out to them in many ways. He can even use disobedient people to accomplish his purposes.

 

My outward life was corroding and I didn’t even know it – I was slowly loosing focus. My outward behaviors were more given to lust and porn.  I did not have deep friendships. My relationship with God and others was suffering.

freakoutMy marriage was in trouble and I didn’t even know it – I was not being the husband I needed to be for my wife. My lust was clouding my being able to serve her. I was not being real and authentic with her. We had a false intimacy. It was only a matter of time before the bomb blew up.

I am not indispensible to God’s plan – I think things revolve around me. I think God needs me. I think the church won’t continue without me. Not true. God continues His big plan in spite of us.

I was hurting my church by my disobedience – We might have been blessed for a while, but having step down and leave greatly hurt the church. It hurt my friends, the leaders, and the people of the community.

 

bibleA VERSE TO THINK ABOUT

“For He causes His sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous.” (Matthew 5:45 NIV)

 

WHAT THOUGHTS DO YOU HAVE?
Q: Why do you think good things still happen to people who are doing bad things?
Q: What does this blog stir in you?

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