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Lessons I'm Learning From Not Preaching For Two Years

January 10, 2010

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This weekend is a major recovery milestone for me.  Today I am preaching my first sermon in over 2 years.

September 2007, was the last time I preached. My secret lust and porn addiction came to the surface, and I started realizing how bad I was.  It was imperative that I step out of the ministry to work on my addiction, my marriage, and my walk with God. 

Here are some lessons I am learning:

  1. I was much worse off than I thought
  2. I cannot keep a secret and be a good minister
  3. I was in bondage to my sexual sin 
  4. I was an approval addict also
  5. My identity was wrapped up in my ministry and not in Christ
  6. God would provide for my family in other ways
  7. Sexual addiction costs a lot:  my church, my ministry, my reputation, and almost my family
  8. I could be fulfilled as a person without having to be a preacher
  9. The goal was not to get back to the ministry, but to submit to whatever God has for my future
  10. What’s the rush?  Another year in recovery will make me an even better minister.
  11. A large silent segment of the church struggle with porn and lust and feel they have no where to turn.
  12. God still wants to use me

My message today is called “Why Do We Continue to Struggle With Some Sins?”  It’s a question I wondered for two decades as I never seemed to have victory over my lust.  I’m glad to share some scripture and my thoughts on the subject for the church I’m at. 

(I’ll post a blog later on the subject and a podcast on

It has been such a priviledge to be able to sit down, hear from God, and work on a message again.  There were times I wondered if I would ever be able to hear God’s voice again for a message.

  1. JeffTN62 permalink
    January 11, 2010 12:48 am

    That is awsome!!! be encouraged you will be used mightily in helping others that need to hear your transformation!

  2. January 11, 2010 11:22 am

    Thank you. I appreciate your willingness to share the struggles that you have had, and continue to have. It is a great encouragement to me in things that I struggle with in my own life.

    There was a time in my life when I wondered if I would hear from God as well. These thoughts are really encouraging.

    God bless you.

  3. January 11, 2010 12:00 pm

    I hear you, brother. It is God’s grace that he took us away from the pulpit.

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