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Psalm 90:14-15 – A Challenging Prayer For Perspective

May 6, 2010

 

 

I like to go to the book of Psalms a lot as I begin my bible reading.  I have found the book of Psalms especially helpful in sexual addiction recovery.  I came across Psalm 90 this morning.  I was especially moved by vv.14-15:

 

 

 Psalm 90:14-15 (New International Version)

14 Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love,
       that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days.

15 Make us glad for as many days as you have afflicted us,
       for as many years as we have seen trouble.

The psalmist prays for God to have compassion on his servants who have known him, but recently been experiencing his wrath.  He’s obviously been through some hard times, but now is asking God for perspective.  

“satisfy us in the morning with Your love” – One of my prayers lately, is that I would learn to be a better lover of God.  In my addiction, I was a lover of self and my intimacy with God was whithering away.  I want that back.  I want to wake up in the morning, seek God and His love, and be satisfied. 

I feel like I am still trying to find satisfactions in things that cannot satisfy me.  My work, this blog, my wife, my kids, or my hobbies.  I pour a lot of energy and time in them, but often to the detriment of my relationship with God.  

God help me to learn again to be satisfied in You!

“Make us glad for as many days as you have afflicted us.” – I’m not sure this is saying, “make us glad You afflicted us” (even though we can thank God for that).  To me, the psalmist remembers a large chunk of years that were not pleasant, and he wants to be see the dawning of God’s love again.  He wants God to move from affliction mode to affection mode.  He wants this chapter in his life to be one of closeness to God, gladness, and satisfaction.  

My addiction sent me into a downward spiral.  I invited the heavy hand of God with my behaviors and heart change.  I deserved a humbling, and worse.  God out of His love caused my sexual behaviors to be found out.  He allowed me to begin a chapter of affliction, to break me down and rebuild my life with healthy components.  

I am already experiencing this new chapter of a deeper relationship with God. 

I want more. 
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